Thoughts in the introspective. Tegan and Sara are up in there too.
Twitter is @BigBadWolfBoi, Wolf Haleigh.
I can’t talk to him when I’m like this. Hopefully he’ll understand if I explain it tomorrow.
So remember that time where my one superior on drumline basically plays to my emotions to get me to play better
Like provoking me so I can play more accurately
And bringing up two years ago because I am in the same position as the person then who was essentially causing some problems
Like if I’m too involved I’m him
But if I’m not I lose my position
I COULD LOSE MY POSITION AS SECTION LEADER DO YOU GET IT??
SO WHEN I GET STRESSED IT IS BECAUSE WE ARE HAVING THE SAME PROBLEMS THAT COULD LEAD TO MY LOSING MY POSITION OF LEADERSHIP. I SWEAR I’M NOT MAD. BUT YOU NEED TO KNOW THAT THIS IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE AND IDK HOW OR WHEN TO TELL YOU WHEN YOU WON’T BE BURIED IN SCHOOL WORK. OR STRESSED.
I figure if it is here you will find it when you feel like it. But yeah. Things are not peachy right now on my end.
Reblogged from hellajess
Being socially inept is also coming back to bite me in the nads. And that is a thing I can’t fix. Like. It’s affecting my work and my personal shit. Like.
You want to know what feeling defective is like? This.